I have recently attached myself to a, let's say left field, celebrity by the name of Kelly Osbourne. Yes the same one that is the daughter of Sharon and Ozzy. I say left field because she is not an A typical hollywood glamour girl. She is not famous for a specific profession, she had a stunt as a singer for a moment but it never took off as a career. Good single though (Papa Don't Preach (Madonna cover). And then there was The Osbourne Show in which she did nothing but eat and go through crazy hair and cussing phases. She was addicted to drugs and had frequent up and down weight issues. She was here and there as a presenter or host of some series. Doing the regular rounds of a C List Celebrity. Then she disappeared after failed albums, shows, etc. After hiding for a bit she popped up as Mama Matron/ Roxy Hart occasionally in the UK revival of Chicago. Performing daily and wowing people with how much better she getting she started to slowly climb the ladder of relativity again. With much scrutiny over her weight loss she was forced to announce that she had binging and purging problems. She became slightly heavy again settling for a "comfortable" weight. It was all about her weight with every effin magazine...

The Gentle Man's Contortionist

Lawyer: What did you give the generous man in return?
Contortionist: Nothing.
L: Then Why did he give you so much money?
C: He said, "take this, because I want you to do amazing things in your life. Now go. Go be amazing."
L: Did you love him?
C: In my own way I suppose I did.
L: What way was that?
C: He adored my art and not my physical. He never requested a show, but became an audience. I gave him purpose to get up and be somewhere, and he gave me purpose to move and create. Tui and La, push and pull, ying and yang.
L: What did he want you for?
C: He never wanted me. There was never a want between us. Only need.
L: What did he need you for?
C: It was I who needed him.
L: For money? Sex? Some kind of father figure?
C: Inspiration. My ballet, my acrobatics, my imagination; he inspired me to create.
L: So what is the money needed for?
C: To spread creation, imagination, inspiration. He fulfilled my needs so I could fulfill others dreams.
L: Did he love you?

Hello, won't you help me my friend
My parent's marriage is going to end
My world is crumbling, I'm constantly torn
I'm not sure if I agree with either war

*Stupid fights
All through the night
Words neither means
But to them like oxygen

Do you think they'll halt
Start acting like adults
Not lie and go off running
Do you think they still love me?

*Stupid breaks
That don't last all day
Deception they don't plan
But to them like oxygen

Civilians caught in the chaos
Starting more fights when they already lost
At what cost, do they wanna see furniture burn
Maybe once the house is gone they will learn
Maybe when the trinkets are all glued in places
When family photos start missing faces
When they start making everyone else decide
To get involved and take a side
But what they don't see, what they won't see
Is that in a war zone, no one can breathe

Stupid parents
We can't pick them
A divorce they don't need
But to them like oxygen.... meeting fire and the trees


**** So side bit, this song was played at the VMAS (which was alright) but I'm not a huge fan of Taylor Swifts' I just think she is a good little country girl, but this song is definitely one to stick in your head. Well to me at least. It's about how one thing can totally shatter your perception of innocence. You still look at it in aww but it certainly isn't the same. Almost stained. Almost tainted. Ghostly song, great vocals. Perfect theme for the song I wrote above titled "Oxygen". EDIT- I posted the song but it was removed cause Taylor hadn't put it out yet... sooo, here is another fitting nice follow song by Sara Bareilles.

  Sara Bareilles- The Light by Xesxpress

Sooooo I went to see Eat Pray Love and I will tell you how enlightened I was when i saw it, however just as a quickie hehehehe, I will give you a piece of music that was played sorta in the beginning. Now I'm a sucker for some mood music, especially if it has that light cafe style mixed with jazz and latin blend. Maybe some acoustics.This song hits all of those elements. It makes me want to go to a smokey night scene- minus the cigarettes- and just feel sexy LOL not in the gay way or the get some way, but the old fashioned way. It's very soothing. Ugh I could use a Chai right now.

  Josh Rouse- Flight Attendant by Xesxpress

It sucks to be stabbed in the back
Cause I have small arms
But I'm gonna leave it in
To show people you meant harm
No more hiding in the dark
Now that I'm free
I forgot what it felt like
To relax and just breathe

So pick up your face from the bedroom floor
Enjoy the memories, cause there are no more
You're such a pitiful man full of lies
There are so many exes that are really why's?

I blame the happy fat, the comfort zone
The nights you left me all alone
The names you said I took them to heart
And I let you rip me apart
But no more suggestions
No more falling all over you
No more being all over you
Cause I am, all, over you

You kept me running on half battery
So I couldn't escape
But now I have all the energy
To tell you to get the hell out the way
Time to look on the bright side
Cause my skies were looking dim
Time to face my fear of water
Jump ship and learn to swim

So pick up your clothes from the bathroom floor
Enjoy the essence, cause it is no more
You're such a pitiful excuse for a guy
It's about time I said goodbye

I blame you, I blame myself
For thinking I couldn't do it
Well
I changed my views
Something needed to change
Needed to pick myself up off the couch
And move on to a different place
One without you
Cause I am ALL OVER YOU

Every Little Thing Is All Right

A place for everything and everything in it's place. That's the saying, right? Well if it is or isn't or just is int, lol, I look around me and think, yes it is possible that I am right where I'm supposed to be. I'm not saying that there is no room for improvement or change or scenery or pace, but now in the moment feels alright. All right. We take for granted hidden little moments that would look great in a flashback montage. Sometimes we only care about the outcome and the bigger frame of the idea. Why!? look at the details you miss. There are some big decisions yet to be made and there are still questions floating in the air. I need an answer now like I needed it then, is what they say. Well I say to thee: you didn't get "it" then, and you're still here now. Live in the MOMENT people. I'm gonna give you the key, the answer, that one little thing and I promise you, everything will be All Right, alright?
Here are the steps; now in order to do this right it only works once and you have to do step by step as you read this instruction guide. No cheating and reading ahead, if you're not in the right setting then STOP now and read later. You will need pen and paper, and your brain. The last one is a must.
So step one...

I love that song by Taio Cruz... I mean Jay Sean... I mean Jason Derulo... I mean Colby O' Donis.. I mean...

So this posting I would like to address the music industry at large! I keep listening to the radio and here comes a male singer using some kind of synth pop with an R&B ting to the sound. And I'm like oh that's cool, maybe the next wave of Usher's. Not twenty minutes go by and another similar song comes on and I'm like WHAO, this guy has 2 songs on the radio! I mean if Bey and Gaga can pull it off (and with each other as well) then this guy can too. Props. Wait a sec, the next effin song is by him TOO! Someone is pullin my leg and as anyone can tell you, I don't like leg pulling. This dude must be screwin the right execs to have 3 singles out on radio play at the SAME time. Who is he? OH!